Prologue: You may already know that I have been working on a novel about the daily struggle of life with mental disorders, in particular anxiety, depression, and borderline personality disorder. It is a work of fiction, although it is loosely based on my some own experiences. This is part of that project. #shelostcontrolagain --- Borderline Personality Disorder. That's what the therapist said I have. I sit in the floor with the spread of pamphlets I was given. In the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-IV), Borderline Personality Disorder is defined as an enduring pattern of perceiving, relating to, and thinking about the environment and oneself in which there are problems in a variety of areas including interpersonal behavior, mood, and self-image. I read every word slowly, repeated each line in my head. I pressed the tip of a black ink pen into the paper, underlining. Interpersonal behavior. Mood. Self-image. People with Borderline